Bringing sexy back

Writing this down makes this feel even more crazy. Adam and I are doing to P90x together. Ugh. I say ugh because I am not a huge fan of P90x. Now, don’t get me wrong, this is probably a great system that works for a lot of people, but I tried to start it before and was done on day 1. I just don’t like videos that seem so unattainable while they just tell you to “try your hardest.” At least give me modifications, because I’ll tell you right now me doing 10 pushups and then watching the tv while they do pushups for the rest of the 60 minute video is not going to get me into shape. 

Rant over. Adam and I decided to do this based on his suggestion yesterday. We were leaving the beach and he had to carry the cooler over the sand to get it to the car. The walk from our beach spot to the car was enough to make him feel like he needed to get back into shape.  Adam still looks exactly the same as when he got out of the army last June, but he feels like he has lost some of his strength and doesn’t want to let himself go.

As for me, well, fitness is always a goal for me. I love feeling strong and looking fit (although feeling strong is pretty much the only thing I have been able to achieve since I had Isaac). I told him I am only going to start this with him if he really is going to do it full out for 90 days and he said he would. He thinks we will motivate each other and I think I actually agree.  Normally I am terribly embarrassed to work out in front of him because he is always in such great shape, but I feel like after all of the working out I have done in the last year I can hold my own.

 I can foresee some roadblocks already though. The only time we can work out together is at night after Isaac goes to sleep.  Isaac is usually asleep by 7:30 so that means we probably won’t eat dinner until 9. I am usually in bed by 10 so I have a feeling that won’t be so good for me. Also, I can foresee working out so late causing us to have trouble falling asleep. This could be a problem for me since I am usually up by 5:30 or 6 to get ready for work.

Regardless of roadblocks, I am just dying to get back into shape. I technically only have 8 pounds to lose to get back to pre-pregnancy weight, but I have a feeling I will have to lose more like 15-20 to really look fit again (having a baby changes your body in crazy ways). It really sucks being a girl sometimes. I realized the other day that I don’t feel sexy at all. I pretty much assume no man would ever look at me and think I am attractive. I know that’s ridiculous because I am not overly huge or anything, but when your body completely changes right before your very eyes and you have little control over it, it really messes with your mind. So….here’s to clearing my mind and getting into shape! I will give updates every week to talk about our progress, and if I get some guts, perhaps show our before and after pictures.